Loser of the Love Game

If you only knew then I would be ruined.
I can not let you in, not this time.
My heart beats its wings frantically.
It wants to fly far away from this feeling.
But what is it?
I don't want to know.
At least not yet I don't.
I think?
Do not ask me any questions,
For I can not tell you any lies,
But I can not tell you the truth either.
The words unsaid linger here,
In the space between us.
If I don't know what you feel than how can I tell you what I might feel?
They say all's fair in love and war,
But they lied.
Someone always loses.
And right now I'm the Loser.
Loser of the love game.
How much more tragic can this story get?
Can I catch a break sometime soon?
I take two steps forwards and somehow end up three steps back.
I will never pass "Go" or collect any reward.
I can hide and never be found.
But nobody ever won any game that way.
So I just sit here,
Stagnated.
The Loser of the love game.